I miss him. I miss touching his face, tracing his lips and brows while he is asleep. I am dying to hug him. Dying to kiss him. I am so hurt to see him everyday and not being able to go near him that much. I sometimes can't help but make excuses just to see him. I feel fine now that we're not together but I miss him so much. I miss just being with him and it makes me wanna cry. Two years of marriage is just too soon to end.Yet, they say that I must let go of the burning kettle. Sometimes I wish things would just be great for both of us. I feel so devastated because everything we tried to make something good out of our marriage, things would just crumble and sometimes would even break into a thousands of millions of pieces. Just like now. I heard his voice just a second ago.I feel like bursting into tears. I miss him so much. It seems that he is enjoying our set-up. He looks happy now that I'm gone. Probably he hopes that I'll be gone forever. But I really do wish we could try to work things out again. Piece by piece , you know. Try to make things better. I wanna go back to the very first time I met him, the first HELLO; and all the other first-times that we had like the date, the kiss, the night with him, the marriage proposal and every good memory that came between us. As I said, I wish to hide in them forever. I wish to just dwell in them. I wish to just stop feeling so miserable yet sometimes I really can't help feeling so low. I am honestly still hoping that everything would be fine for both of us and our kids. I truly wish that things will just fall into its right place soon. It's hard pretending you are strong. I usually breakdown. I wish things would just end. I wish the pain to go away. I wish the pain would just go away. Pain, please leave me like he did. Just leave me.