ANYMORE

why do you have to be so insensitive? i hate it when you pretend you're not hurting at all... i hate you and i hate myself for still beign there for you...still hoping. I don't want to think about you. I don't want to think anymore. Why do I have to compete for your attention when there are people out there willing to give me 100% of their attention? Why do I have to compete whenyou can't even give my half of what I want from you?

i am what i am

I want to be in control with everything in life but it seems that it just can't be that way. Most of the awful things that I've been through wasn't my choice albeitly! Why do I have to suffer?! If I could turn back the time, would I choose to be in this same place? Most probably, yes! Ironically, yes! Would I do it all over again? YUP! No matter how this life sucks, I wouldn't change a thing about me and my past because I learned a lot from all the shit that I've been through. I wouldn't be what I am right now if not for the things and the people that came my way. Changing something from my past would be like me becoming an entirely different person; a stranger to my own personality. I dont' want to be another person other than who I am today.